HARDEST VIDEO I EVER FILMED | DESI PERKINS

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  1. Mollie Nield

    Mollie NieldHour ago

    You are amazing❤️

  2. Long-Nhi Tran

    Long-Nhi TranHour ago

    I truly love you so much desi. You are such a strong and powerful women. The day will come! Love from Germany

  3. rasielle23

    rasielle23Hour ago

    I love you Desi & Stephen! It will happen trust the process, I will keep you guys in my prayers. 😍😘

  4. BozLagina

    BozLaginaHour ago

    This is so pure. It takes a lot of courage to open up this way and I really admire you even more. Thank you for sharing your truth with us. You are a bright light to all of your followers. We are rooting for you and Stephen. It WILL happen. Sending all the love from Chicago.

  5. Nere17

    Nere17Hour ago

    I'm sure that this video is going to help a lot of people, thanks for filming it. You are a great role model, you are a very strong and real woman. As you said in your video everything happens for a reason, so don't loose that faith. Love you so much ❤

  6. Mella G

    Mella GHour ago

    I don’t think I ever cried so much watching a video then watching this . Desi you are absolutely amazing and so strong . I promise it will happen & don’t lose the hope and faith in god . My mom struggled for 5 years to have kids & I struggled 3 years before I got my kids .. You both are beautiful souls that god will grant the amazing miracle . You both will be in my prayers ❤️❤️❤️

  7. NafisaAli

    NafisaAliHour ago

    So much love to you! I truly personally feel your pain. You are never alone ❤️

  8. Angelina

    AngelinaHour ago

    cried through this video. you're such a strong person. i'll keep you in my prayers

  9. Jessica Big Eagle

    Jessica Big EagleHour ago

    You are so amazing and strong!! ♡♡♡

  10. stefano tommarelli

    stefano tommarelliHour ago

    she just talk to the camera, i dont see the difficult part

  11. Anahi Reyes

    Anahi ReyesHour ago

    Baby dust your way 💫😘

  12. Courtney MacDonald

    Courtney MacDonald2 hours ago

    We tried for our miracle baby for 4.5 years. It was hardest 4.5 years of our lives - tests after tests, let down after let down, month after month and everyone asking “when are you going to have a baby”. We came out stronger as a couple/family. We now have an 8 month old beautiful baby girl, who brings us so much joy everyday and we feel so lucky to have her.

  13. Oriana Birgen

    Oriana Birgen2 hours ago

  14. Ebeez504

    Ebeez5042 hours ago

    There is so much strength in vulnerability. Props to you for putting this out there

  15. Anna Bella Dehoyos

    Anna Bella Dehoyos3 hours ago

    I barely got to see this video today and I want to put out there. I myself have gone through what you have gone through. 😭😭 I understand your pain! I’m not alone. I love you even more now ❤️ Thank you! To know someone who I admire feel strong enough to share your hard times for others all I can say is Respect! ✊

  16. deladem dzotsi

    deladem dzotsi3 hours ago

    You’re so amazing Desi 🌻💛 Although sometimes the most difficult circumstances, everything happens for a reason. I truly and deeply believe that God will bless you with a child, and it will be the most beautiful thing. I will genuinely be praying for you and Steven, that God will remove the fear of trying again and give you the faith and strength to do so. 💛

  17. Yamely. A

    Yamely. A3 hours ago

    Oh desi 😔 I wish I could hug you. Please stay strong and don’t give up! God is very big!

  18. Farnes Family Scrapbook

    Farnes Family Scrapbook4 hours ago

    This video speaks volumes. People need to stop asking youtubers to get pregnant. It's not easy, and its none of their business. It was so hard for me to get pregnant, and when I did I miscarried. Then it took forever to get pregnant again. Miscarriages need to be talked about more and people need to make more videos like this. I'm not brave enough to tell my story so I absolutely respect you for posting this. You're incredible and there will be a day you become a mother, I just know it. Sending you lots of love and support!!

  19. Rachel Davis

    Rachel Davis4 hours ago

    My sister is now 31. When she was 20 she was told she will never have kids don’t even try. At 28, she had her first baby after a few years of VERY diligent health choices. She also had a miscarriage before her babies came (she has 3 kids now) so please please please never lose hope that it WILL happen for you and Sven. Stay strong and know that it will work for you at the right time. Thank you for using your platform to help shed light on this hard and trying process. You are such a light! Prayers and all the good vibes and love to you Desi, you strong, resilient, beautiful woman 💜

  20. Ms Union

    Ms Union4 hours ago

    Im so sorry Desi you are such a sweet soul. I also have had a miscarriage and can not get pregnant and I cant afford fertility treatments or adoption. At least you have the means to try other options when you are ready and I'm not trying to be sound mean or rude just honest a lot of us cant afford the other options.

  21. lauren breese

    lauren breese5 hours ago

    Your so courageous for sharing your story! Miscarriage and pregnancy struggles are taboo to talk about and it shouldn’t be! So many women go through these struggles. I admire your honesty and will be praying for y’all.

  22. Janina Valdemar

    Janina Valdemar5 hours ago

    Be kind to yourself. I have struggled through the same. Today my rainbow baby is 4 months. Women are made to bare children. Have faith♥️🙏🏼

  23. tahmina a

    tahmina a5 hours ago

    may god give u not just twins but tripplets stay strong girl everything hppds in its time god is with u dnt worry xx

  24. Nereida Cora

    Nereida Cora5 hours ago

    Your Beautiful person Desi. Inside and out. GOD Bless you. Your a story is inspiring. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you and Your hubby all the best.

  25. Tiffany Childs

    Tiffany Childs5 hours ago

    Stay strong Desi! I know what you have been through as I have dealt with a loss myself. It doesn't get easier mentally, but I promise you everything does happen for a reason. I wish you and Steven the best of luck with your future plans and send all the best wishes possible. It sucks that miscarriage and infertility are such taboo topics that people don't talk about. I know that it would help so many if the topic became something that people could talk about on a regular basis. Though I agree it is hard to talk about, at some point we have to let it out and I am so glad you were able to do so and make this video. Much love!!

  26. Danielle Kisko

    Danielle Kisko5 hours ago

    I love you girl! Thank you for this! You’re so brave! You’ve helped so many w your story! Ps.. totally off subject but where is your shirt from? It’s soooo super cute just like you😊

  27. Veronica Gheorghe

    Veronica Gheorghe5 hours ago

    You are so brave! I was crying with you this whole video... I can’t imagine what you’ve felt and what you’re feeling now.. This is such a delicate subject and you opening up about your experiences and feelings is so brave and made me love you so much more. I pray for you, and for your family and I wish you all the love and happiness you truly truly deserve!!

  28. megan anthony

    megan anthony6 hours ago

    I pray for women trying to get pregnant every night y’all will definitely be included in those prayers ❤️

  29. Paris Lee

    Paris Lee6 hours ago

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  30. Sabrina De Jesus

    Sabrina De Jesus6 hours ago

  31. Mai Vang

    Mai Vang6 hours ago

    We love you Desi. You’re not alone stay strong

  32. Lauren Montiel

    Lauren Montiel6 hours ago

    LOVE YOU DESI ❣️

  33. Zahra

    Zahra6 hours ago

    Good things take time to happen, all the love to you :)

  34. Brittany Bauhs

    Brittany Bauhs7 hours ago

    Sending you ALL MY LOVE and good vibes that your hopes and dreams come true for your little family. You’re brave for putting it out there for the world to see. God bless you sweet girl ❤️

  35. Nichole Moody

    Nichole Moody7 hours ago

    Awe Desi 😢 stay strong 😘

  36. Emily BoBemily

    Emily BoBemily7 hours ago

    My timeline is so similar to yours. I had a miscarriage, then didn't get pregnant for years after trying. I can't even begin to tell you how many pregnancy tests I've taken. I started to give up, and think about my life without children. Toward the end, I was looking up holistic remedies up, as a last ditch effort. I just kind of threw everything at it, because I felt like at least I would know that I tried everything. I even started drinking tons of whole milk, because I read it would help. Lol.. I will say, I think the issue was that I was not ovulating. I started taking an herbal supplement, called Vitex (or Chasteberry. Same thing.), thinking it would not make any kind of difference. Surprisingly, it really regulated my cycle, like it never had been before- it even made my cramping more mild. I honestly would take it just for that benefit. Anyway, it took a therapeutic dose for probably about three months before I got pregnant. That pregnancy is now a 6 year old boy, obsessed with Transformers. I've since had a little girl, as well. The second pregnancy came much more easily. It was like my body just needed that reboot. I'm 31, and it seems like I've known so many people my age that struggled with this. Even going to doctors, and being diagnosed with infertility. They have since gone on to conceive naturally, and have healthy pregnancies. Regardless of what happens, I can see now that pregnancy is such a small part of parenthood. It becomes just a blip and a blur, when you are knee deep in wiping butts. Even if you don't carry a child, you'll still be the one covered in spit-up and snot, drinking cold coffee. And isn't that was really makes a mom?

  37. Christina T

    Christina T7 hours ago

    It took me 4 years to conceive my son via IVF. I also had a miscarriage so I know your pain but trust me your baby is waiting and he/ she is so worth all of it .

  38. Kristine T.

    Kristine T.7 hours ago

    Honestly, I had to pause this video several times in efforts not to breakdown crying with you during the sad moments and the happy vlogs. Your story and pain is so relatable. What you’ve taught me through this video is that keeping the faith and positivity is so important and not far-fetched. I sometimes talk like it’s not going to happen for me and I have to change that immediately. And instead of not addressing the issue, I’m going to start making my doctors appointments and being proactive. I pray for you and all of us who dream of starting a family. God bless us all! ❤️

  39. Alondra Isabel

    Alondra Isabel8 hours ago

    We love you Desi and you’re not alone ❤️

  40. Taisha Judson

    Taisha Judson8 hours ago

    Hi Desi I can relate i have had five miscarriages Back to back and one stillborn child. After 7 years of trying I was able to stay pregnant and be blessed with 5 beautiful children. All u can do is have faith and stay focused on your ultimate goal. Desi I feel for what you are going through and I'm praying for you and Stephen.

  41. Megan Dutra

    Megan Dutra8 hours ago

    Desi, you are such a beautiful person inside and out. I have the biggest hopes for you and Steven. You will both make amazing parents one day. I look up to you so much and I admire your strength. You will be in my prayers. Stay positive and hopeful. That baby room will be full of laughter and memories sooner than you think. I love you!! Xoxo ❤️🙏🏽

  42. Cortney McKnight

    Cortney McKnight8 hours ago

    I'm sorry Desi. I hope and pray you get a little one soon! 💙 Or find answers. 💕 Thinking of you.

  43. Sarah Wylie

    Sarah Wylie8 hours ago

    Ur so brave desi just keep thinking positive thoughts. I had 1 miscarriage an at the time of my life it was so stressful in a way I feel it was meant to be. It's been 7 years now an I still get emotional about it. Sin vfc e then I've had 3 more kids total of 4 kids and on a break right now. All girls an wanting a boy hopefully next one will be. It's so hard to watch this video but I'm so glad u did. Maybe this will help u to move on. Just keep thinking positive. If u are not able to get pregnant have u thought of seriguit. Having someone else be pregnant for u. Yes I know it sounds weird cuz u want to know the feeling but a lot of ppl do it these days an it's still ur baby. I was telling my husband that I would carry someone's baby in a heart beat that way they can have a baby of their own. Everyone should be able to have one of their own. I just hope it happens for u desi I really do. I'll keep praying for u guys.

  44. Sarah Wylie

    Sarah Wylie8 hours ago

    I meant surrogate.

  45. Laura DuVall

    Laura DuVall9 hours ago

    Hey Love, My heart goes out to you, and you're in my prayers. This really relates to me and my husband. We have been together since 2011, and have never used a form of birth control. Up until several months ago, he really thought he was not meant to have children, and we both have had strong feelings since we both really want a family. We finally let go of thinking about it for awhile and I have now found out I'm 10 weeks pregnant! I don't always understand timing or how things work, but keep your head up love! Sending you so much love 💕

  46. Suha Hafeez

    Suha Hafeez9 hours ago

    I love you so much for your strength ❤️ I hope God blesses you with a beautiful baby one day

  47. Lizette Jørgensen

    Lizette Jørgensen9 hours ago

    I will pray for both of you ❤️❤️

  48. Anni Ernstson

    Anni Ernstson9 hours ago

    I was crying with you through the whole video and i truly hope that everything will work out. I am so proud of you for sharing your story and I will be here along the way supporting you. You rae an amazing woman and even though we haven't met i love you for who you are.

  49. Rawee Gindidis

    Rawee Gindidis9 hours ago

    Thank you for sharing. You are definitely not alone.

  50. DYNA

    DYNA9 hours ago

    Pregnancy comments are so inappropriate on so many levels. They come from a good place but they don't know your side of the story or what you're going through. People will always have an expectation that they will project on you; when you have your first they will ask about your second. When you're not married they will ask about getting married. And it doesn't mean because you had your first you don't have any issues. Fertility issues are very real. I know too many women who suffer so much and all we need is a little sensitivity before we speak. When I was pregnant, I had a sister in law who had experienced miscarriages (even throughout my pregnancy). 8 months after my daughter was born, she had hers. You never know what life has in store for you and I'm not brushing off your struggle, but it's not at all your fault and you never know if it will happen but I know you'll make an amazing mum! xx

  51. FromMeToYouWithLove AJC

    FromMeToYouWithLove AJC9 hours ago

    i'm distracted by the cute dog lol

  52. Bea Török

    Bea Török10 hours ago

    Lots of love and good wishes ❤️

  53. Kay Sb

    Kay Sb10 hours ago

    Thank you for being so candid and sharing. You're amazing xx

  54. Tiarne Manfre

    Tiarne Manfre10 hours ago

    This video brought be to tears, you are so brave and we are here for you, you are amazing Desi❤️ keep strong💗💗 we are all praying for you! You are not alone!!!😘😘😘 your time will happen I can assure you😊

  55. Lelys World

    Lelys World11 hours ago

    If motherhood has taught me one thing it’s that it is unpredictable. All of it. From Day one. You have no control over any of it. We do the best we can, and plan as best we can, but it is it’s own thing. Just have to go with the flow. 💗💗💗💗💗

  56. Sanja Laković

    Sanja Laković11 hours ago

  57. Serife Ugur

    Serife Ugur11 hours ago

    YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!

  58. Sahiba A

    Sahiba A11 hours ago

    ❤❤❤❤❤

  59. Tina Berisha

    Tina Berisha12 hours ago

    🤞🏼❤️

  60. Verity Saxon

    Verity Saxon13 hours ago

    Thanks for sharing such a difficult and painful part of your life. So brave. Sending love all the way from the UK. I love your channel 💫

  61. April Perez

    April Perez13 hours ago

    😰

  62. Jocelyn Gonzalez

    Jocelyn Gonzalez13 hours ago

    ❤️❤️❤️

  63. Phases of Someboutmary

    Phases of Someboutmary13 hours ago

    Cryingggggggggggg omg ❤️ stay strong chula

  64. Kimberly Guilds

    Kimberly Guilds13 hours ago

    Praying for you and your husband and babies to come. In Jesus Name Amen

  65. Kimberly Guilds

    Kimberly Guilds13 hours ago

    Thank you for making this video.

  66. Ruth Legaspi

    Ruth Legaspi13 hours ago

    God bless you! 🙏🙏🙏

  67. Rosa v Piña

    Rosa v Piña14 hours ago

    Desi I tried getting pregnant for 9 years, while fostering children. I ended up adopting four beautiful, smart children all under the age of 4. I was the happiest mother. A year later after the adoption, I unexpectedly got pregnant. I had a healthy baby boy. Last year I unexpectedly got pregnant again, but this time it was a ectopic pregnancy to twins. Everything happens for a reason, you will get pregnant. ❤

  68. Владислава Калинина

    Владислава Калинина14 hours ago

    Oooo, Dezi, i love you, don't cry, please😯❤everything will be fine!😯😗

  69. Nora K

    Nora K14 hours ago

    Desi, this video brought me to tears. I am also trying to get pregnant for over a few years and have not been successful. Thank you for sharing, you are amazing and such an inspiration.

  70. Celia Lopez

    Celia Lopez14 hours ago

    thanks for share this with us. It can help other people in the same situation. love

  71. Valeria Sanchez

    Valeria Sanchez14 hours ago

    It’s heartbreaking to see you or anyone else go through this. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Love you ❤️

  72. Cassandra Gonzalez

    Cassandra Gonzalez14 hours ago

    Always praying for you, Desi.

  73. Christine Padilla

    Christine Padilla14 hours ago

    Hey Desi, I just wanted to let you know, that you’re not alone. My situation is a bit different from yours. I’ve had a total of three miscarriages and it’s gotten to the point where I’ve become numb to it. I can get pregnant easily but I just can’t keep none of my pregnancies It’s something that you don’t believe that you yourself can go through until it actually happens. It’s tough. You don’t feel good enough. I actually told my husband to find someone who can give him children because I wasn’t enough for him. But just like your husband, mines has definitely been my rock through it all. Things happen for a reason. I know what one day you’ll be blessed with your baby. I have faith that it’ll happen. Thanks for sharing, seriously. Lots of people are going through the same thing and doing a video like this can definitely help. Xo.

  74. MeetTheMyers

    MeetTheMyers14 hours ago

    I totally understand and I know the hurt and pain from a miscarriage .. but I pray for you and Steven and I know God will give you that blessing of being a mommy ❤️. Stay strong and let those emotions out !

  75. Marlla Monroy

    Marlla Monroy15 hours ago

    I cried with you! I’m so sorry! I’m so happy though that your hopeful and strong you are an amazing women!❤️ wow your so strong!

  76. Emma Valdez

    Emma Valdez15 hours ago

    I love you Desi. Praying for you, Steven and your family ❤️ It will happen. 🙏🏻

  77. Sonya Braithwaite

    Sonya Braithwaite15 hours ago

    I have been following you for a while and just wanted to say I’m sending you so much love. I could feel your pain while you were talking and know that you and Steven would make great parents. Big hugs to you xxx

  78. Marie Burns

    Marie Burns15 hours ago

    Awe Desi, I know how you feel. It took me and my husband 4 years and 2 miscarriages to have out little girl who is now 15 months old. I felt all the pressure from the world around me, especially my parents. I changed my diet to help me get pregnant as I found out that for example cheese creates mucus in the body which makes the egg unable to stick to the uterus lining. Also fruit is very healing to the body, I would recommend checking out medicalmedium on insta. Sorry if advice is not what you want right now but I just had to share as it helped us get pregnant without any medication. Love you and praying for you ❤️

  79. Rooney Mara

    Rooney Mara15 hours ago

    Desi, I'm crying so hard since the start of video. I know exactly how u feel. I had an ectopic pregnancy and lost my right tube. I still remember how happy we were when we got a positive pregnancy test. I cried so hard too if I remember that day. the doctor was very hopeful that we will get pregnant again and the day just never came. I too a lot of time convince myself I'm pregnant, just like you. I'm sending you a lot of love, Desi. I hope our day will come when we get to hold out baby in our hands. Chin up and stay positive!

  80. Truth power

    Truth power15 hours ago

    trump is a trader and sold out to Russia vote to impeach him

  81. Steff Gouldie

    Steff Gouldie15 hours ago

    This was incredibly brave and courageous of you to share. Do what you want to share when u want to and I know that it scares you but when you get pregnant just take one day at a time god bless hun xoxo

  82. Lo M

    Lo M16 hours ago

    All in God’s timing hun, prayers and kisses coming your way!

  83. Margaux Dietz

    Margaux Dietz16 hours ago

    ❤️❤️❤️

  84. Nicole Mitchell

    Nicole Mitchell16 hours ago

    I admire you so much more for sharing. I had two miscarriages, one with twins...it was heartbreaking. I tried again when I was ready and blessed with 2 more children. To this day, I am still scared to try and have a baby. My youngest is soon to be nine, and I am wanting to try for another one before I get too much older. Being scared is natural but you need to follow thru. If you don't get the answers you need and want, try a different route. If you ever need a surrogate, I'm here. Good luck to you and your husband, you are both in my prayers. Love you Desi!

  85. chaveslisa

    chaveslisa16 hours ago

    Sending you lots of love and light, Desi. I also have the same fear that I won’t be able to have kids because of my health issues so watching this video made me cry so much. You shouldn’t be embarrassed about this though and thank you for talking about it. Don’t lose hope! It WILL happen. ❤️

  86. Lu H

    Lu H16 hours ago

    Love you so much Desi❤️ God has a plan for you , I know it sounds so cliché but something is coming just for you. It may not be what you have in mind but have faith. You and Steven do so much for so many people. Those blessings will form themselves into something beautiful.

  87. Luisa Gonzalez

    Luisa Gonzalez16 hours ago

    I never thought that seeing you crying and passing all this me hiba a doler tanto!! We love you so much!! And we all know and we all have faith that you and Steven going to be the best parents ever!!! I know so many cases like this and trust me the first thing is calm!! No stress Pretty soon hermosa pretty soon 🙏🏻♥️

  88. Brow Xpressions

    Brow Xpressions16 hours ago

    Love you Desi! I gone through two miscarriages, lost a little girl. Worse thing ever I don’t wish that on anyone, now I have a handsome little boy! I believe things happen for a reason as well. I believe god gives his hardest battles to the strongest one! You’re going to be a great mother!

  89. Angel De La Cruz

    Angel De La Cruz16 hours ago

    Maybe you can turn that room into a “peace of mind” room, “positive thoughts”, “prayer room” as of now. For one day you will have your baby in your arms in that room and be able to tell your story to him/her. You’re amazing for sharing such a personal side of your life. Thank you. Positive thoughts and many prayers your way. It’ll happen 🙏🏻

  90. Anna Subrina

    Anna Subrina16 hours ago

    I love you Desi. I remember you talking about this a long time ago. I hope all your dreams come true and I hope your life is filled with peace and happiness because you really deserve it. You and Steven

  91. Jenna Frazier

    Jenna Frazier17 hours ago

    My best friend & his wife tried for eight years. I encouraged her to talk to a specialist & specifically as about ovulation. They concluded she wasn’t ovulating more than 3x/1yr. Which I will PRAY, HOPE, SEND POSITIVE THOUGHTS, POSITIVE ENERGY, FAITH, ENCOURAGEMENT, ANYTHING I CAN TO **YOU**, that lack of ovulation is your one & only issue. 2 cycles after she started the ovulation medication (Clomid), she got pregnant! It was $20/month. She had a heathy pregnancy, normal labor & delivery & healthy baby girl. 3years later, when they wanted to conceive again, she had to start the medication again & it took 5cycles for her to have the same results, just this time a healthy baby boy. The ONLY THING she regrets is not STARTING IT SOONER. But that is understandable, normal, but also something no one should ever beat themselves up about. Everyone that wants to get pregnant & have their own child, wants it to “just happen”. That is such an organic feeling. But we all should be thankful that there are medications that can literally “fix roadblocks” like this. ❤️🙏🏼💙🙏🏼❤️

  92. mishymich

    mishymich17 hours ago

    God is sovereign.

  93. Normari Deleon

    Normari Deleon17 hours ago

    I am so sorry for you desi and everyone that goes through this you will absolutely be in my prayers and you are are strong woman and remember alot of pepole realy love you and care about you .💕

  94. Lisette Vargas

    Lisette Vargas17 hours ago

    You will be in my prayers . You story reminds me of me and Dr.Huang helped my husband and I conceive. It’s a long and exhausting process for fertility treatments but totally worth it.

  95. Jenna Frazier

    Jenna Frazier17 hours ago

    I KNOW YOUR PAIN & wish I didn’t. I struggled for YEARS. NINE. VERY. LONG. HEART-WRENCHING. YEARS. Nine years AFTER having my first baby, I constantly dealt with unwelcome comments from people. I felt guilty. I was a mess. I suffered losing two gifts from God, that wasn’t MY CHOICE to lose. There are reasons I will never know. Tests were all negative for everything. I felt guilty. All I could do was pray. All I did was pray. God gave me 5 pregnancies. God gave me 2 angels awaiting me in Heaven. God gave me 3 healthy children here on earth. I AM HERE. YOU WILL NEVER BE ALONE.

  96. Maricela Martinez

    Maricela Martinez17 hours ago

    I’m so sorry Desi! I really really hope you get want you want! It was so hard to watch the video. You will be a wonderful mom, don’t lose hope!!!

  97. Alyssa Rose

    Alyssa Rose17 hours ago

    That outro broke my heart into 1000 pieces. I have faith in you, too, Desi. It will happen for you. Praying for you.

  98. April Romanek

    April Romanek17 hours ago

    Remember that God gives you what you need to know what you want, please just start thinking about having a baby. Try and get the thought of not being able to get pregnant out of your mind. I know it sounds crazy when people say if you think about things that will happen, but it is true. There is a really good video on what words mean, and what they do is they put rice in two different cups or a jar and they talk to it. One jar they comment a lot of hate in the other jar they comment a lot of love. The jar that is talk to with heat gets moldy and turns bad, and the jar that is talk to his love stays the same. They have done the study with plants one dies and One stays alive. You need to be positive all the time about pregnancy or at least try sweetie. I know it is so hard. But just think baby baby baby I will have a baby I will get pregnant. Never say you won’t never think you won’t. Same with the miscarriage try not to ever think about it, and I have had three so I hope I don’t offend you by saying any of this. I just think that if you remain positive it will happen. I know you will get pregnant. Much love sweetheart. If you are thinking and having thoughts about struggling , you will struggle. Please think pregnant and just KNOW THAT YOU WILL GET PREGNANT IN YOUR HEART AND BELIEVE IT AND I BELIEVE IT WILL HAPPEN I REALLY DO.

  99. snatchedB_

    snatchedB_17 hours ago

    GODS PLAN MAMA! I LOVE YOU, YOURE SO STRONG ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  100. Zoe Martin

    Zoe Martin17 hours ago

    Love you Desi! You're so strong and all round incredible. Don't give up xx

  101. Leesha Jo

    Leesha Jo18 hours ago

    I love this SO much! You genuinely are a kind soul and besides wanting to hug you, girl I am praying Jesus gives you that baby! Lots of prayers! xox thank you for being so open. You never had to, but thank you for being so vulnerable!